Jaded: Fatigued by Overwork; Exhausted
Made dull, apathetic, or cynical by experience or by having or seeing too much of something.
Once upon a time, I found myself "jaded". Just absolutely tired, uninspired and stuck. I was in such a dangerous place because I'd actually started to question my faith. My mind was whirling with questions like, "What is this life about?" "Is God even is real?" During this time, I had gotten really sick. The only thing I could pray was "God, don't let my faith fail." The prayer surprised me because my first inclination was not to pray for healing, but pray for faith.
My creativity even suffered. For all of my creatives reading this, you KNOW how this feels!
I remembered my mother telling me on a few occasions, "Kiki, you'll come to a point in your life in Christ where you won't "feel" anything. They'll be no chills, thrills, bumps, and shivers. You just have to believe he's there and that he hears you. You just have to KNOW what's true and move in that direction."
I had to make a decision to go back to the basics. Reading the Bible and praying daily (I'd gotten off of that somehow!). I started to notice the infusing of strength. Not just in my physical body, but my spirit. And then hope returned. The reality that things would not always be this way. Here are some practical things I had to do to get unstuck:
Re-establish my regular prayer time. For me, if I don't keep my meetings with God, the day will slip away from me. I find that I'm not as productive on those days.
Time in the Word of God is essential. Everyday, I need to ingest the Word of God to recalibrate my thinking. I tend to wander off into all kinds of foolishness if there is no life-giving Word in me.
Dismiss the idea that I know it all. This was a real issue for me because I used to walk around like I knew everything. Life has a way of humbling you.
Now, after taking these steps, the flood of energy and creativity didn't just come back quickly. Everyday I get better. I get better at moving in faith to finish the task, trusting God to give me a great result. And he has done just that! So everything you see of me now is an act of faith. Faith to keep going. Faith to believe that there is purpose for all the seasons of my life. I understand that just because something is functioning differently than usual, doesn't mean it can't yield awesome results. I hope this makes sense to you.
"I pray with great faith for you, because I'm fully convinced that the One who began this glorious work in you will faithfully continue the process of maturing you and will put his finishing touches to it until the unveiling of our Lord Jesus Christ!" -Philipian 1:6 TPT
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